Magnetic Principles #2: Why Am I So Tired All The Time?

Song Of The Week

Song: As You Find Me by Hillsong UNITED

Mood: The Love of God

Tastes: Fresh

Are You Exhausted?

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

– Matthew 11:28 New International Version

All who are weary and burdened… Sounds like everyone these days. 

It seems like society has instilled in us (well, at least for me) that if you’re not tired, you’re not working hard enough

I’m not gonna call it out because I, for one, have been indoctrinated with this mindset and it seemed true at this point in my life.

Are You Working Too Hard?

I go about my days planning what to do next; what steps to take to get the maximize the time spent on work. I calculate my literal footsteps so that I reach my destination faster so I can do more work; oftentimes, it’s just me walking faster.

It seems like a downward spiral to continue to work so hard all the time when I barely have the time to do the things I used to love (like watching The Walking Dead – not that it’s the most Christian show out there or anything). After all, even great athletes need to recharged to perform again. I recognize this principle, I’m just too stubborn to practice relaxing.

I am guilty of over working myself, like many of us. Most days, I don’t even focus on rest; I barely reward myself for the work I have accomplished throughout the day. It’s gotten to the point where all I look forward to is sleep and nothing else; I don’t look forward to meeting my friends, or going to spend time with my family, or even lazing around and doing nothing. All I have in my mind are what needs to be done and how much work there is left. 

Is there anybody out there who feels the same way as me? Or am I just being a whiney little robot? 

I think it’s fair to say that I’m not the only one who feels like they’re exhausting themselves. Actually, it’s expected of us to behave this way. Whether we are easily influenced or not, repetition is an effective way to brainwash people. The corny motivational posters all around and deceiving things we see online all the time subconsciously push us to our wit’s end to strive for those things. 

In other words, we’ve become too greedy. Our hearts have become set on the things of this world. Mine especially. Set like stone. 

Before I let you hurl your stones at me, let me put before you my case. All I want is to be stable so that people I care about don’t have to worry about the next meal. I’m not aiming for a 18K gold plated yacht, nor am I aiming for a private jet, I’m just aiming for enough.

Herein lies the problem with greed: Greed is like an ugly green goblin under the bridge. It snatches you down into the abyss when you least expect it. Just when you think you’re merely aiming for ‘enough’, it quickly becomes ‘not enough’.

Food on the table quickly becomes cravings for Butter Poached Lobster and Filet Mignon. A nice little house in your mind upgrades itself into a 5 million dollar bungalow. A family car transforms into a transformer. The list of unrealistic, ungodly things could go on. (When I mean ‘ungodly’, I don’t mean they’re sinful, I mean they’re things God has not put in your will).

Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life that God has given you under the sun—all your meaningless days. For this is your lot in life and in your toilsome labor under the sun.”

– Ecclesiastes 9:9 (New International Version)

I hate feeling this way all the time: exhausted and empty. 

It is in these times, when I realize I’m doing things out of God’s will for me, I become desperate for a touch of God, a reminder.

That’s where grace comes in. But grace can only come in if you eagerly let it. 

It takes courage to admit your flaws and faith to correct them. 

I know it’s very offending for me to call out someone else’s greed, especially I am so flawed myself.

However hard it is for me to accept that I’m greedy, I realized that offense a parent of greed. 

In fact, offense feels like the mother of a whole basket of ‘bad things we shouldn’t posses’.

But what is the root cause of Greed? 

How do I get over greed?

Greed is essentially wanting the things that are outside God’s will for you. 

It may be that God’s will for you is to be financially or emotionally comfortable, but that also means if it’s in God’s will, then it will be God’s way. 

Many a times, greed stems from us trying to achieve God’s will for us in earthly ways. No wonder we get sidetracked by the earthly pleasures of life that are not meant for us. 

How Do I Know What Is God’s Will For Me?

So how do you know what to do? More clearly, how am I supposed to know which work is for me and which is for God? 

It’s very easy to differentiate, much easier than you think it should be: Do what you can.

Most of the time, we burden ourselves by taking tasks that are not meant for us into our hands. The burden comes in when we take on a task we are not meant to do – making us stress out and worry about how we can meet tat shortcoming. 

This burden is, however, not made for us. It is made for God to handle – be it through another person or by a supernatural method. 

Because Jesus said:

Come to meall you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

– Matthew 11:28-30

What escaped me was the meaning of working and life in general. I forgot what I’m made to do and focused on what I thought I had to do. 

Looking back now, there are certainly things I could have let go and would still have ended up the same way or even better. 

So would you join me in letting grace come into the chambers of your heart? Would you kept the love and fullness of God enter your deepest desires and fix them? 

Because, God, I need You to fix my desires. I need You to fix my greed. 

God bless you and learn to let go this week!

– Tobais

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